Resting.
Having Landon in my life is such a huge blessing. I rarely put names to blogs, (Yazz's being the other exception), but I am delighted to be in a relationship with him so I feel free to write his lovely name. (Yes, I even like his name a lot.)
I love that we can't help but smile when we look at each other.
I love that driving 100 miles today with him only felt like 10.
I love when he sings along with songs on the radio and doesn't know the words because I still get to hear his beautiful voice.
I love that we are so aware of how much we have to learn.
I love that he helps me direct my heart towards the Lord.
I love that he is always trying to understand me better.
I love that Lan wrote this to me tonight:
"I see why God said his creation was good every time I see you."
Thinking of how God has been transforming that heart of his fills me with happiness.
It breaks my heart when I hear of other people speaking of a love they're looking for, waiting for. But it does make me so incredibly grateful that God has put Landon in my life to challenge, encourage, teach, and love me better with each passing day.
I have been learning a lot about being secure in Christ and in my femininity and something in the book Captivating related a lot to my last post about opening my heart up and trusting God to protect me.
Here are some of the truths in that book that recently stayed with me:
"Webster defines 'risk' as exposing one's life to the possibility of injury, damage, or loss. The life of the friends of God is a life of profound risk. The risk of loving others. The risk of stepping out and offering, speaking up and following our God-given dreams. The risk of playing the irreplaceable role that is ours to play. Of course it is hard. If it were easy, you'd see lots of women living this way."
1 Peter 3:5-6 // For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands, like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.
"The reason we fear to step out is because we know that it might not go well. We have a history of wounds screaming at us to play it safe. We feel so deeply that if it doesn't go well, if we are not received well, their reaction becomes the verdict on our lives, on our very beings, on our hearts. We fear that our deepest doubts about ourselves as women will be confirmed. Again. That we will hear yet again the message of our wounds, the piercing negative answers to our Question. That is why we can only risk stepping out when we are resting in the love of God. When we have received his verdict on our lives--that we are chosen and dearly loved. That He finds us captivating. Then we are free to offer."
I find that pursuing God and seeking Him above all else is the most satisfying thing in life. When I rest in God's love, I am free. I am free to take risks. To love others. To be loved by others. It is a scary world out there, let's be honest. And I know there will be times when I will get hurt. Things I won't understand. Things that will drive me crazy as I try to figure them out. Life isn't this easy journey, but something about knowing God and living with the love of Christ in my heart and mind gives me this peace and confidence to face each day. I am so grateful. God, You are so good. Thank You for loving me. It is by Your love that I can love other people and I know that at the end of the day, Your love is what holds me. What sustains me and satisfies me. And lets me know I'm protected. Thank You.
"God asks us to be vulnerable. He invites us to share and give in our weaknesses. He wants us to offer the beauty that he has given us even when we are keenly aware that it is not all that we wish it were. He wants us to trust him. How it turns out is no longer the point. Living in this way, as a woman alive, is a choice we make because it is the woman we want to be. It is our loving response to our Lover's invitation."
Amen. Amen. Amen.
posted by Emily @ 3:34 AM
1 Comments:
WHAT?! i never knew you had a blog until chelsea informed me last night. and i'm so excited to read it all! so i will begin, now.
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