Self-centered.
No one really gives anyone the benefit of doubt here.
But neither do I.
But neither do I.
First impressions are so much more important these days.
And I make them too important myself.
Are they picking at all my flaws?
Possibly.
And I do the same.
I am what I hate.
I am not the friend I desire.
And I feel like I bury myself deeper in this hole.
God, please pull me out.
I lose patience with those who are impatient.
I criticize those who criticize others.
I sometimes feel like I've lost that ability to see beyond
the surface and into the heart these days.
And I want people to do that for me.
I am what I hate.
I am not the person that I think others should be.
Selfishness is disgusting.
I want all this attention.
And I don't have the energy to give any to others.
So consumed with myself.
I say things that offend people without even thinking.
And sometimes I don't even feel like feeling bad.
I try to protect this heart because I don't trust others to.
And I become cold.
I need to place my heart in God's hands and
not try to take it back into my own.
not try to take it back into my own.
He'll protect it, so what am I so afraid of?
Feeling abandoned and not cared for.
Dwelling on those who have wronged me.
And focusing on feeling betrayed.
When will I get over myself?
Selfishness is disgusting.
It's all about me.
And I hate that.
And I hate that.
But I just don't feel known here.
And I don't know where home is.
And I don't know where home is.
Something needs to change
because I can't keep living with this mentality.
because I can't keep living with this mentality.
posted by Emily @ 2:20 AM
1 Comments:
This is so real. So raw. What a great, expressive writer you are. So many people would love this.
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