Lately,
Lately, I've been coming to terms with the fact that there is a lot of fear in this heart of mine.
It's really sad.
I feel myself grabbing hold of it and trying to protect, trying to make sure nothing goes wrong, that nothing surprises me. I want to be prepared for pain.
This is no way to live.
Lately, I've been so inspired to enjoy life in a new way. I want to stop trying to brace myself for what's to come. I want to experience life with all that I have and risk getting hurt. And cry when I need to. And feel love when it's there.
I don't want to run away from love.
I have this idea that creeps into my mind that things really might be too good to be true, that I will always get hurt. And I live life half-heartedly because of this mentality.
I never know what to expect but I try to anticipate the steps ahead. Whenever I hear about other people talking about how they have to give their plans to God, I think of how I don't have these specific goals and dreams and plans for my life. But really, I think I do. And I think that plan is to not get hurt. That plan is to prepare and protect.
And I want to stop this.
I want to give my heart fully to the Lord.
I want to be so wrapped up in His love that I live in the freedom of His son.
I want to trust that He'll protect me. That He is strong enough.
Because He is.
posted by Emily @ 3:05 AM
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