Breathe.
boooo.
I don't like feeling bipolar. Haha, 20 minutes ago I was crying and being a douche and now I don't feel that sad anymore but nothing has happened since 20 minutes ago. Maybe just relaxing and being on the good old computer is a remedy. Haha, definitely not, I need new ways of getting my mind off things. It's okay, I'm listening to music, that's probably what's helping.
I hate bum days, but it's good knowing I have a fun week to look forward to. I love that right now, no one knows that I have a blog thing so I just write for myself. Woo!
School is too close.
And I have no motivation.
If anyone has a good way of motivating people to want to go to school and do well and give it the good ol' 100%, PLEASE share your secrets with me.
I hope tomorrow goes well.
Oh, feeling guilty about things that seem like nothing is definitely a bust. Like the whole emotional purity thing I don't understand, that keeps sneaking into my head and confusing me. On a random note, that won't make sense I'm sure, I hate not knowing who to call when I'm upset, well not WHO to call because I have plenty of friends who'd listen I'm sure, I just overthink everything. Horrible characteristic of mine. If I could disown this whole overanalyzing thing that I do, I'd feel 30 pounds lighter.
Okay, and also. I'm going to take a risk in saying this because I wouldn't usually feel comfortable posing thoughts like this, but why is it so hard to hear God sometimes? Yes, I know it's not a voice booming from Heaven, but knowing his will seems impossible to me sometimes. Because I don't know how close am I to the path he has for me, and if I'm on it, I don't know what sidestreets are bad to take. Oh, this relationship gets confusing for me sometimes. Anyone know this feeling? If you have a response, I'm down for fresh ones. The stuff I've heard so many times before doesn't always get me out of feeling this way.
<3
I don't like feeling bipolar. Haha, 20 minutes ago I was crying and being a douche and now I don't feel that sad anymore but nothing has happened since 20 minutes ago. Maybe just relaxing and being on the good old computer is a remedy. Haha, definitely not, I need new ways of getting my mind off things. It's okay, I'm listening to music, that's probably what's helping.
I hate bum days, but it's good knowing I have a fun week to look forward to. I love that right now, no one knows that I have a blog thing so I just write for myself. Woo!
School is too close.
And I have no motivation.
If anyone has a good way of motivating people to want to go to school and do well and give it the good ol' 100%, PLEASE share your secrets with me.
I hope tomorrow goes well.
Oh, feeling guilty about things that seem like nothing is definitely a bust. Like the whole emotional purity thing I don't understand, that keeps sneaking into my head and confusing me. On a random note, that won't make sense I'm sure, I hate not knowing who to call when I'm upset, well not WHO to call because I have plenty of friends who'd listen I'm sure, I just overthink everything. Horrible characteristic of mine. If I could disown this whole overanalyzing thing that I do, I'd feel 30 pounds lighter.
Okay, and also. I'm going to take a risk in saying this because I wouldn't usually feel comfortable posing thoughts like this, but why is it so hard to hear God sometimes? Yes, I know it's not a voice booming from Heaven, but knowing his will seems impossible to me sometimes. Because I don't know how close am I to the path he has for me, and if I'm on it, I don't know what sidestreets are bad to take. Oh, this relationship gets confusing for me sometimes. Anyone know this feeling? If you have a response, I'm down for fresh ones. The stuff I've heard so many times before doesn't always get me out of feeling this way.
<3
posted by Emily @ 11:01 PM
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