Friday, March 26, 2010

The world today

The world was gray today 
and 
I looked upon it 
thinking of how it sympathized with me.

The way the light shone through the
clouds
created a beautiful brightness upon
the colorless tones.

The darkness wasn't enough to call for a
storm
but a little rain would be welcome and would
match the beauty of the day.

Light and dark.
Not too much of either.
Just very gray.
And I can relate.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Quiver.

I've been getting the chills lately.
All the time.


Other thoughts:
I wish I could write better. 
There is so much I want to say that I can't articulate in the way I want.
I also wish I could express myself with a musical instrument.
Shoot.


For now, I will just sing to songs I can relate to.
And I will just think. And think. And think.


Music and writing and sleeping are my remedy.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Copeland.

I could probably use each of their songs to tell a story.
They make music that takes me back to another time in my life
in a way that nobody else has done.
And maybe in a way nobody else will ever do.
Their music forces memories out of me.
When I think I've forgotten, their songs remind me.


My heart can't help but feel when I turn on Copeland.
I feel captivated by what they've created. Always.
I can't hear a song of theirs and just pass it by.
And I love that.

We knew this would happen.

We knew that every song would be hard to listen to.
I know for me that's the case.
How about for you?

Saturday, March 20, 2010

We messed up.

We forgot to stand strong against the attacks of the deceiver.
We forgot to stand strong.


We were strong in Christ.
We knew what we wanted.
We were growing.
We were being guided by Him.
And He was our fountain of love.


And we forgot.
We lost sight.

And all I can say is how sad that is.



Because we were strong.
And in love.
And at peace.


And it's almost as if it was stolen from us.
Because I know we had it.
And it fell through through our hands.


And all I can say is how sad that is.


But the only thing that brought us to where we were before
is our creative, powerful King above.
Directing each step and lifting our hearts to know Joy.
Helping us love in a way that honors Him.


So if we can hold onto that,
things will be okay.


He has us in His hands.
Hands of power.
Hands of love.
Hands of perfection.
Hands of joy.
Hands of healing.
Hands of mercy.
Hands of grace.
And we will be okay.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Encourage.



You know those seasons of life when the weight of the world just feels so heavy? Personally, that's something I'm feeling lately. And I know that heaviness is making its impression upon so many others right now.

It breaks my heart to realize how much hurting there is all around me. And sadly, I feel like as I've grown up my eyes have been opened to the reality that pain is so prevalent and life takes so many turns that can be incredibly challenging. 

These past few months have been rough. 
I've had friends experience sorrowful situations with their parents. The sudden loss a father. The unnerving news of cancer. The heartbreaking surprise of divorce.
I've listened to my 8th grade girls, whom I love so much, tell stories about all the chaos that they're experiencing in Jr. High and it blows my mind.
In meeting new friends at college, I've come to be reminded of all the struggles in life that make us who we are. In sharing stories with one another, tons of old memories have resurfaced for many of us, some that aren't too exciting to remember.

I felt like writing this because in talking to my friend Jade tonight, I just expressed that I don't know what I would do with the weight of the world if I didn't have a relationship with God. To have a God that invites us to put our fears, broken hearts, anxieties, inadequacies, and confusion in His hands is so amazing to me. It brings me to tears when I really take the time to process through the beauty of who He is and what He offers to those who believe in Him. 

I've watched too many people give up. 
And I know what it's like to want to.
But as much I've seen people give up, I've also seen the beauty in holding on.
God has a way of turning even the most horrible of circumstances into something beautiful. I see the purpose of this being that God wants to reveal Himself to us. And the funny thing is despite the fact that so often the way that God works goes unnoticed by us, He still finds pleasure in making things beautiful. In giving hope. In causing restoration. In loving us.

I pray that we will share in each others' sufferings and not let people go through the hardships of life alone. 

Do you not know? 
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles; 
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
//// Isaiah 40: 28-31

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 
//// Philippians 4:6-7

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. 
//// Romans 15:13

Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. 
//// Hebrews 4:14-16

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.
//// 1 Peter 5:6-11